So sometimes stupid thought get in my head but all it takes is that thought that one fucking thought and suddenly I can’t stop thinking about it. Lots of times I bury it deep, sometimes it burst out and it’s bad. I’m gonna be obscure about this because if I admit anything, then I feel weak and worthless. For 2 and half years I made sure nobody saw weak Dan again. This whole rant is probably stupid but this is my new outlet for this so deal with it the alternative is me probably making an ass out of myself. Things can go great like today did and then at the tail end of it one little comment or sight or stupid thought passes In my head and then fucking bam! I’m depressed for a week. Well I am tired of that. So I am gonna complain and bitch here and secretly hope nobody reads this And that everybody reads this. He’ll odds are I’ll delete this post in a few minutes or hours. Because this side of Dan isn’t suppose to show. So if you read this far, awesome. It’s midnight ish and I feel ever so slightly better with the end of this rant and because there is no not awkard way to end I’m just gonna stop